Dear Dr. Archer,
I am a 28 year old woman, mentally disturbed for the past four years. It's a normal habit, but as time has passed, I found that it has become more serious. While doing work, my mind diverts to wherever my head and eyes turn all at the same time.
Whatever thought I am thinking, I don't want to think. But my mind starts concentrating on that thought and whatever the sentence is in my mind, I get stuck on that sentence, and repeat it over and over and over. I then repeat the sentence for a long, long time. I get confused and it puts my mind and body under pressure.
I keep on doing like this, but luckily I somehow stop suddenly. Then, becoming normal again, I start thinking about all the steps and the root thought and where all this started.
Every day I go through this kind of activity. The root cause is always the bad or unwanted thought. Which I desperately don't want to think about.
While diverting my mind from the thought, sometimes I see some point on the wall or floor and start staring at it constantly. It makes me unable to turn from that position.
I stand like a frozen statue and do not even blink my eyes, for 15 or 20 minutes. Eventually I once again come back to a normal condition. Please help.
I can understand how thinking these thoughts would bother you so much. Having these unwanted, intrusive thoughts can be devastating and make it impossible to have any type of normal or happy life.
Please do yourself a favor and make an appointment with a psychiatrist for an evaluation as soon as possible. If that’s hard for you to do, then ask a parent or friend to make one for you.
I’m not sure exactly what is going on, perhaps these are obsessions or perhaps hallucinations, but you need to assessed by a professional. I suspect medication could make a world of difference for you. Good luck, Shaija.